Happy Monday

Isn't it funny, no matter how much you sleep, you feel exhausted?

If i see one more commercial for male sexual enhancement, i am going to scream.  Men seem to have no problem, how about exhausted women?   We need the help.  I was talking to several women and every single one of us said "sex?  really?  ugh!  who wants it?"  

women are tired, and having cfs, it just makes it even worse.

I take my vitamins faithfully...on the weekdays, when i am sitting at my desk, but forget them on the weekends, when i don't sit at my desk, and i do feel the difference, so i have to focus on being better about this.

Our insurance kicks in on 10-1.   oh happy day.  

Kids start school again next week, not having them around to mess up the house all day...oh happy day.
I love them with all my heart, but i can tell Nate is bored.  I think he would enjoy a job, but how to convince him of that?

good night world?
no, i still have 8 hours of day to go...and oh yeah...tim wants his horizontal fellowship.  ugh.

love that headache

I remember older people saying the could feel the weather in their bones...me....i feel it in my head.   Today, i knew it was going to rain, even though the sun was shining and it was lovely out.    The day wore on and my head felt like there was a balloon inside expanding until it was ready to burst.   It finally started reasoning and the pressure in my head eased.   It is still there, but at least i can see straight.   When did i get so old ?

I am trying to do vitamins, d, iron, e.  I have tried multi.  I did notice a huge difference with the d.  I was shaking, just exhausted, so i did research and noticed that women often lack d.  Okay....i think it is helping.

Now, do they have a pill. That improves ones sex desires ?

I got nothing.

Trying to be a better person, and falling asleep

Chronic Fatigue is not for wimps.

Tonight, my husband would like is his wife to be there for him, in a wifely way....and all i can think is "Do i have to be awake for it?"   I mean, seriously?  
I wonder how many marriages are destroyed, because the wife just can't, so the husband, being a male, decides he is going to find someone younger and better and has an affair.  
It isn't i DON'T WANT IT.
It is I CAN'T.
I am so tired.  I used to be able to do it all.
I used to be super mom.
I had several jobs.  I worked for aacs, cnn and taught dance....and raised three kids and was a ministers wife, which meant i hosted events at my home, volunteered, taught sunday school, did plays for VBS, i was an amazing woman.    Now, just the thought makes me want to cry.
I am grateful i have a job i can do from home and from bed when needed and i can sit and crochet.   My hands are beginning to fight me, i have no clue what i will do when they fail, but i am determined i will craft until the moment i can't craft again.
I do need to be a better photographer, so i can do that when i need to.

I am going to go on a date with my husband, and i am going to enjoy myself and i am going to fill myself up with 5 hour energy, which, in my case, lasts 2 hours, so i can be a wife.

Ah, what we do for love.