Finding a medium

I am trying to find a happy medium, where i can work, be a mom, have a hobby and a life.   I know i will never go back to super mom, that i had to accept a while back, but to be happy, that is all i want.   There was a time, i thought i would recover, and i would heal and that gave me strength.  Now, i am having to accept it isn't going to happen.  I have to accept my limits and find a way to get through it.   Okay....so..what are my limits....?

I need to sleep more....but why does it seem the more sleep i get, the more sleep i need?

I need to rest more, but i never seem to get enough rest.

I did give up dancing, only because it started to hurt more and more, but i am replacing that with walking.  That was smart and i am enjoying it.  I missed several days due to INTENSE pain, but i will get back on that tomorrow.   Gosh, i didn't know i could hurt so much.  
I found a hobby i can do relaxing...crocheting relaxes me and i can do it in a chair...smart of me.   And people want to buy stuff, better of me.  And HEY, that is what just saved our butt this month.

And stress is killing me, so i have to be aware of that.   Making plans to avoid stress, money is the biggest one, so the allowance idea i think will be smart.

Oh,t hat reminds me, i have to ask Lauren the name of that program.

No more spending money...we need to save and save some more.  

I pray i get rid of these headaches...i ahve had one all week, enough is enough.   

I am also keeping track of my hot flashes to give to the doctors, i know this isn't normal.

And i continue to crochet!  

Raising kids and working full time with fibro and cfs...sucks.